Thursday, April 15, 2010
Let The Drama Begin...
15 April 2010...
Date that RP chose to start school while all the other polys starts next week.
I'm up at 4 in the morning.
Wide awake.
And school only start at 12.
So...
With eyes wide open.
Thoughts lingers through my mind.
And like always.
You were the only one that I could/chose to think about.
This has got to stop.
To see you happy with him.
Would only kill me more.
I swear I'm trying.
But I promised I would never.
So...
Should I go back on my words?
I ask you.
6:54 AM
Monday, April 12, 2010
Insecurities
What I want...
And what I DON'T want.
Everyone wants to love...
And to be loved...
I'm almost like everyone...
But I'm not.
I think.
In my eyes...
At 18...
I'm not like everyone else.
That's the part of me I don't understand.
At 18...
A typical boy/man would go out partying, clubbing, drinking, smoking etc...
As soon as they turn legal...
Some earlier...
In my eyes...
I can't find a good enough reason to do this things.
I find no fun in it.
I do not know why.
I blame my parents for this.
Their teachings/lectures/scoldings/advices.
This plus life lessons...
Brings me to this...
What Can I Ever Offer To Whoever You Are?
These 9 words constantly haunts me.
And after I met you...
The haunting became worst.
I don't know what can i offer.
Because...
Like you said...
There will always be someone better.
Someone better...
1:22 AM
Friday, March 19, 2010
Decision Made
Yes.
I will fight for this.
Say what they may.
I'll still stand for this.
I don't care anymore.
I've got nothing else to lose.
I will run this race.
Until you decide to choose.
Yes...
You...
Even more now... 9:37 PM
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Power
The power of "LOVE"
Makes one do crazy things.
Stupid things too.
But how stupid can you be?
Seriously...
Sometimes...
To think that girls mature faster than guys.
FUCK THAT!
If you are mature, you should know what's best.
And to give in to those sweet words...
HAHAHAHAHA ^^_|_
(do not feel offended unless you are one of them)
Till then... 2:18 AM
Thursday, December 24, 2009
If Not Now, Then When?
Sorry for the lack of update.
Trying to gather myself lately.
Things happen.
Dear ______,
How long more should I wait?
The end of 2009 is near.
Another year gone.
How long more?
Its hard enough to go on when there are others.
I do not know what to do anymore.
Should I wait?
Should I go?
Enough with the games.
Or there was no one playing in the first place.
All I ask is a reason to hold on.
Love,
Syukri
Till then... 2:29 AM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
No One's Got It All
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
Till then... 8:02 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Hero or Villain?
First and foremost,
I do not update that much because I do not know what to write.
And I do not really like to blog about what happens to me but rather what is in my mind.
AND THIS IS NOT AN EMO BLOG FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.
Continuing...
Hero or Villain?
Which side would you choose?
Hero would be for obvious reasons
But Villains are not as bad as you think they are.
You love someone... A lot for that matter.
She may not know how you feel.
And she continues living her life with people you envy.
So which side would you choose?
Hero or Villain?
Be the Hero and endure through all the pain and let it be?
Or be the Villain who stops her from hurting you in ways she may not know?
You love someone... A lot for that matter
She may not know how you feel.
She is undergoing a stress session with life.
Yet people who claims to care for her is making it worst.
But still they get the upper hand.
So which side will you choose?
Hero or Villain?
Be the Hero and preventing a greater pain that has already been done to her?
Or be the Villain and try to add more misery because it seems this would make the relationship better?
Whichever side you choose?
It is all up to you.
I shall and always be on the side of the heroes.
Yes, it may sucked to always get the shorter end of the stick despite doing what is best for her.
Trying to prevent the miseries,disappointment, the hatred...
Yet she may not even know you are there.
What I know is that...
Heroes do the right thing.
Who are you?
Till then... 12:13 AM